Thursday, September 16, 2010
Sniff, Sniff...
I've been somewhat 'down' today. I woke up, barely, and went back to sleep for a while. When I did get up, I didn't feel well. When I don't feel well, I feel kind of overwhelmed about the state of the world, right on down to worrying about the tiniest things in our lives. If I feel this way, then surely there is no hope for any of us, lol.
Anyway, I'm quite pathetic. And how are you? Cause if you're good, I'll let you carry the burden. And no, it doesn't help to think of Heavenly Father's help when I'm like this: that just encourages me to feel overwhelmed, because then I can't fend off all my dad's dire warnings about the end of the world or our secret, rotten, hidden core that might be hiding amidst our intestines, unbeknownst to us. Of course, that premise denies the principle of agency, but, when I'm in the throes of my fevered anguish, all rational thinking is out the window!
Seth went to see about a job, and the pets are locked out of my room for the time being. The tv isn't on, but the fan is - it's hot! Hence, I didn't go outside with Leto and I don't want to be around him if he's whiny. Seth did brush him, however, and did his other pet-chores and moved the sprinkler before he left.
I've been trying to think of plots for the Three-Minute Fiction contests on NPR. Tamathy told me about it. You should go to npr.org and look it up. Last month's winner was intimidatingly well-written, but the runners-up weren't so great. My mind is a blank rt. now, however; at least in terms of original ideas.
Hope you're having a good day. If not, don't tell me!
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We have had a good day here! There is a rainstorm, and a storm warning, and something about that makes it feel neat. Audrey had tumbling class at the YMCA and then we came back home and Brooks started his second week of teaching a computer programming class to Aiden and two of his friends. Some of their siblings came too because the mom was gone and the dad brought them, we made popcorn and tried to keep them happy with a cartoon movie.
I think you might just have to forget anything your dad ever taught you or lead you to believe about the bad people and the end of the world! He seemed to lean heavy on the "we're never going to be good enough" side of things and I think he really felt that way. But we can't let it get to us or we will be useless! I think you probably just need it to get a little cooler and have some Stephen's hot chocolate. That makes everything feel better!
OH, well I'm really glad I didn't call you crying today, that wouldn't have helped you or me at all! :) That's too bad you're feeling down today, how sad for you. :(
You need to re-read Little Women, because I think we all need a Marmee to tell us that we can just try a little bit every day and that's all that matters: just trying to be good. We don't even have to be perfect, whew!
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